Nicki accepting the award for Best Female Hip-Hop Artist @ the BET Awards
i see that tear rolling down your cheek,
are you trying to be strong?
adonis.
your beautiful.
your hurting.
but your not weak.
his your heart locked away?
will you give me a chance to find the key..?
or will i be locked out, like the train of women who try to inflitrate your
walls of secrey and hurt.
i cant promise i won’t hurt you.
but i can promise i’ll love you.
i love you till the moon and stars disappear.
i love you when the sun rises,
when the rain falls.
i cant promise i’ll be perfect
but i can promise i’ll hold you during the night and never let go.
i’ll be there when you weak,
when you strong.
i’ll hold your hand when you can go on.
i won’t be perfect.
but i can be your everything
that you need..
guilt keeps me awake at night.
it lays in my bed,
like a heavy burden on my heart.
sometimes, i wake up out my sleep covered in sweat.
this guilt is killing me.
but what am i suppose to do?
i did my best,
well i think it did.
should i be the only one walking around with a heavy heart.
this guilt like slowly suffocating me,
a pillow over my face
a noose around my neck.
“when you love someone, you just don’t treat then bad”
he did me wrong
i did you wrong
and know this guilt is a mission
to right the wrongs of the hurt in the process.
dream.
I had dream one night i’d never amount to anything.
tossing and turning trying to find a truth in a lie.
trying to find the truth in a man’s eyes,
eyes whose decieved before.
but see me, i was just trying to be complete.
he say he love me but how should i feel about that,
he loved her too, and her, and her but i still say i love you too
i had a dream that my life would nothing like i thought it would be
he told me loved me,
then he told her loved her,
and she loves him too.
deceieving eyes tell easy lies
i’m living proof that walking away only takes two or steps
he loved her, she loved him too,
now he loves her too.
where does the truth lie in a city covered by a veil of lies.
i had a dream one night….fighting to change the outcome of my life.
possiblities in one hand.
reality in the other.
“i love you too….”
and out the door.
stolen possiblites.
the nicest smiles cover the worse lies
girl i love you, can turn into
“bitch i told you that baby ain’t mine”
in a drop of the dime.
then she’s left alone.
deceiving eyes.
two steps out the door,
i felt a certain way when that boy said “i ain’t never getting married”
no committment equals no penality?
i had a dream last night…grayscale to black and blue.
in my dream i was dying a beautiful death,
a death of finally learning the truth.
Fear.
So many people I know are mentally imprisoned. Too afraid too look past the clouds and dream amoung the stars. Too afraid to question what’s being asked of them. What’s life without risks? Without imagination? Why are so many afraid to do more than just the average. Every night I go to sleep and dream of the future, I dream of happiness at night. But happiness is not a road well traveled. Don’t be afraid to be happy.
Take risks.
Spend Money.
Live.
